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Monday, July 31

selamat tinggal julai

Bismillah,

selamat tinggal julai,
aku tahu ini masih terlalu awal,
tapi aku mahu cepat-cepat bertemu ogos,
dan mengharapkan sesuatu yang baru,

benar,
kau sudah memberi ku amaran,
tentang mereka yang bakal aku temui sepanjang bersama mu,
tentang mereka yang tidak harus aku santuni
dan tentang segala mereka yang bermacam lagi,

tapi maaflah,
mngkin juni juga sudah memberitahumu,
tentang betapa aku selain dungu,
juga seorang yang ingkar,

aduh,
kalau lah aku turutkan kata juni,
mungkin aku tidak akan mahu pamit se awal ini,

tapi tetap,
selamat tinggal julai


Saturday, July 22

belum menyerah kalah

bismillah,

i have always love you,
in my very own way,

aku adalah insan yang sering dilupakan,
saat ada yang lebih terutama,
tapi aku sudah biasa,
bahkan sudah semakin biasa,

belummenyerahkalah

Friday, July 21

Syawal 22

bismillah,

things have been so exhausting for me. be it of this master thing, that tutoring thing, this relationship and so on. i even started a new hobby, hating half of me. thank god i have learn how to divide myself into several pieces so that i can pick which ever parts of me that i like. but deep down, i hope i can gather it as one complete pieces just like the old days. soon, perhaps.

i thought twentyfive is the age where i would settle down, but guess life keep asking me to hold on first. i haven't hate life yet, just that i started to not believe on it. not anymore.

i hope i can give name to all of this crap, but then i realise it will just make me more sick of them.

i used to name myself as a fighter but now, i started to use a new word for me, survivor.
yeah, this bad time will finish soon i just need to learn how to survive.

its no fun at all. serious talk.

syawal has come to and end and depression is real,
just saying,